The death of a loved one, the end of a romance, a dream that fades. ‘Old Feelings’ is three songs in the messy and opaque process of coming to terms with loss. Voice, piano and synths.

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You can make a song about the aftermath of an intense relationship. Simple chords, repeating softly, distorted echoes, thunderous cries, yelling and sirens. Crashing into simple chords repeating softly, again. It might be funny, the risk is there, and that’s okay. Serious things are risky. Melodrama, maximum sentimentality, a love so serious the whole world got involved. Listening to Sondheim on a Monday. ‘Old Feelings’ is a song about confounding cycles of memories and feelings. When the whole world, everyone, abandons you and your piano, to your memories of that one person.

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Scott Walker wrote ‘Such a Small Love’. His song seems less about a cyclical process, more about how jarring it feels for time to continue when time is full of gaps. Things that happen punctured by things that didn’t happen. The jarring experience of incommensurate things going on, together. Ritual outward mourning and small inner angers. Dissonant, lonely strings and euphoric, ensemble remembrance. Recording crows and a stick rattled along the railings. Setting every dial to ‘harsh’ and trying to make that beautiful. A drum that won’t stop beating.

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Trying to make what is heavy light, the light heavy. Stopping the song, starting differently. Recording under the covers, humming and breathing, and making that big. Listening to Gillian Rose interviewed on RTÉ. Finding someone else’s words in your train of thought. Music meant to feel like a bedroom when you have too much time to yourself. Tempo slips off. Going somewhere in the outro. ‘I Think I Know’ wanted to be a pop song originally.